Friends from Home

What a day. Only 11:50 and I'm in a not-so-great mood. I thought this day would rock.
I just want to fast forward to 7 o'clock. 7 o'clock is rehearsal for UP. Last night we had our first read-through of the script, and I already know that it is going to be a fantastic production, inside and out. I know everyone but one person in the cast, so we already feel super comfortable with each other. Granted it's a six person cast, but still. That is a great feeling. I think we all are going to play our characters really well, which will make the actual show spectacular.
Speaking of which, I'm going to talk about my character in the show. Maria. She's a sixteen-year-old pregnant girl, and has basically fallen into Mikey's life. Last night the cast had a brief discussion on what we think our characters' roles in the story are, and in my opinion, Maria is the most chill, non-chalont, accepting person in this show. Even though her life hasn't even begun it's hardships, she has accepted it, because it is bound to happen. Now on the contrary, Helen Griffin still hasn't accepted her life even though it's not what she wants it to be. She continues to refer to her "real" husband and how he's so perfect, even though she's with Walter Griffin. She is living her life, and not even accepting that it is happening. I guess what I'm trying to say, is that I want to be more like Maria. Right now, I feel like I am at a crossroads, and there is no end in sight. So many things have been going on in my life that I'm losing a grasp on things. Specifically at school..
I'm loving Christus choir, but I haven't had a "moment" yet. Those are so important to me, and I'm scared I'll never get one again. I like my classes, but I don't LOVE any one of them, which makes me sad. I also just can't seem to find my niche. I don't know who my friends are, and that is just making me desperately miss my friends at home.
This is actually for you- everyone I knew previous to CSP. Over Christmas break I became even closer to Sara, which I didn't even think was possible. We tell each other literally everything and it feels amazing. She has become a necessary part of me, and I cannot live without her. I wish she and I could talk for 2 hours every day, but sadly we don't have time. Sara, I just want you to know, that no matter what happens, you have changed my life, and I know we'll be friends forever, no matter what it takes. You have helped me sooo much this year.
A few weeks ago, my good friend Emma came to visit as well. We both desperately needed a girls' night, and we got one. We had a blast. Unfortunately since then, we've been missing each other a lot more. Hopefully she can come up and visit again, because she and I always have really stupid fun together, which is always memorable.
One more person. I miss my sister. She and I haven't talked more than usual, but I still feel really good about our sisterly bond lately. Whenever she calls me drunk, she tells me that I am the best sister in the world and that she loves me. Unfortunately, I never hear this sober, but Anna, as sober as ever, I just wanna tell you that you are the best sister in the world. You're ridiculous, and though sometimes I do want to stuff a sock in your mouth to shut you up, you're an incredible, respectable person. It's crazy that you're graduating this year. Even crazier that you might be moving. But I kind of hope you do. Not because you'll be farther away, therefore can bug me less, but because you need an adventure. It's time for one. And if you go anywhere, I'll come visit and we can run around like idiots together.

Well I think that concludes my thoughts for today..or atleast for now. I should probably do some homework, as I have time now for it! Maybe some lunch at some point. That might be good. Maybe I'll get me some Leanne Chin while I'm out. A wonton sounds heavenly..