I don't think my heart is at home. That is why I replaced the word "heart" with "spleen". It doesn't seem like I have a mold in Northfield anymore.
Northfield is a strange place.
I can't say I hate it, because..well it did make for a pretty decent childhood, but at the same time, it needs to up its game.
I have to say that some aspects of it, I just love. I love the whole unique-ness of it. I think that may be a reason why I really value individuality. For example, I just love Blue Monday. It's seriously another home. I've been going there with my mom pretty much since it opened, and whenever I'm home, I like to sit and absorb the atmosphere. It's also a great place for people watching.
I think ending up in Northfield again would maybe kill me. So many things about Northfield I'm glad were part of my life, but if they have to be again, I won't be very happy.
When I was home for Christmas break, I became incredibly homesick. For school. Yeah. Isn't that crazy? At school I live in a dorm, live out of a mini fridge, share a bathroom with a bunch of girls, and eat Sodexo. But seriously. It's become such a great home for me. I love my friends, I love Christus, I love the theatre department, and I just love being in the cities. The cities hold promise for adventure. [Shout out to Sarah Carpenter!]
Right now I'm thinking that after college, I am going to pick up all of my life here, and just move. Immediately after college is the perfect to try something new. I want to see if I like different climates, lifestyles, and people. I know some of you think that I'm just dreaming far ahead, but I need some adventure. Over the last few months I've decided that I'm one of those people that wants to remember everything and regret absolutely nothing.
So dammit, let's explore.
Speaking of which, who's up for a spontaneous road trip?
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