Train of Thought for Tuesday

Okay, it is no longer Tuesday, but I wrote this down and never officially blogged it.




Being non-chalant is so much easier. You decide you are, therefore you are.
You don't even know you have any other feelings. It's so much easier.
Being genuinely non-chalant is what I need.
Real "feeling" hurts too much.
My friends say I can't be a robot, but Wall-E still had fun didn't he?
I'm not gonna lie, being alone the last few nights- I've really missed your touch.
Distractions aren't even helping- I hate Princess and the Pea.
Speaking of which, I keep eating frozen peas, and now my teeth are cold.
"It's okay to feel" or so I've been told.
Everything in this room reminds me of you.
Guitar, wall art, iced tea. Yeah even that, it's true.

I wish we had never happened in some ways.
But then I know this fall I would have been mad at myself for days.
I guess what I could say is..
Thank you.
Cheesy, I know.
But believe me it's true.
I don't know what I could have done without you.