This play has been such an eye opener for me. It's completely changed me. I'm so much better off than before. All the people in it are so..genuine. I've never been with such an amazing group of people. I am so fucking fortunate, I could just cry.
Stupid, stupid Maria has really affected me. I mean, I love her, and I love playing her, don't get me wrong..but the connection is scaring me. So many things are similar with me and her, but the things that aren't, SO aren't. I don't wanna be a spoiler, so I won't..I will when the show is done.
I guess a comparison right now is that Maria's life was sooo hectic, and her stupid past was bringing her down, but the promise of a new baby has enlightened her. It brought it back. I think my "baby" is the show. It brought me back to life. I've finally transformed into mainly who I want to be. [For the time being, that is.] I don't dwell on my past anymore, and I'm so much more confident in myself. I'm worth it. Jessica told me so tonight when we put on our makeup. I'm worth so much more than just a romp in the sack.
God. I love that cast.
I cannot get over it. I'm much closer to them than anyone right now. Even my friends here- I never see them! But special shout out to my lovely Rachel! She and I have become SO close during music theory the last few weeks especially. She is amazing, and I'm sooo happy we're becoming so close. I don't know what I'd do without her.
She's always saying how worried she is about me when I haven't slept, ate, or done anything but rehearse. It is so sweet! I love that girl. I hope she and I are friends for a gooood long time.
Oh, it's official. I'm going to add a theatre minor. Wow. Random thought! Also I may study abroad in the summer. I think that may make sense with all my crazy ass credits now.
Okay, I'm beginning not to make sense anymore. And I'm talking to good ol' Chris. We haven't had a good facebook convo in weeks. Damn busyness. But screw work. I need some ME TIME.
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