Wow. This week is going to go fast.
Rehearsals rehearsals rehearsals.
This weekend was a blast. We celebrated Megan's b-day, then Saturday I had a blast at rehearsal, then went to the Magnum Chorum concert at St. Thomas. I got to see my dearest Spencer. That was amazing.
Sunday I went shopping with my ma, which was really great. I got some much needed stuff for choir tour and some other unnecessary things.
Today I had a job interview at ULTA after a really really long day. I feel good about it though. I came back and did my homework, and since I've been just relaxing in my room. Listening to some awesome Pandora. I've found the best music tonight.
I don't have much else to say- I'm pretty wiped. What a day.
Friday I leave for choir tour! That is going to be SUCH a memorable experience. I'm really excited for that. I get to see my aunt and uncle that I haven't seen in years, and catch up with my sister in Chicago for some sisterly bonding time!
Mm. You should really try nutella and pretzels. Best combination of salty and sweet EVER.
Goodnight those of you that are reading this blog.
Sorry, it doesn't really have much purpose, huh?
Monday, February 28, 2011
Thursday, February 24, 2011
Busy Busy Busy
What a week. It is only Thursday, and I feel like I have endured 2 weeks full of stuff.
I had a lot of school work this week, lots of demanding classes, and a hell of a lot of rehearsal.
Also, Tuesday night I was up til 4. That was a stupid, stupid mistake. But not on purpose I might add.
Yesterday I also had rehearsal from 4-6:30, and again from 7:30-10. WOW.
Tonight I have more rehearsal, then tomorrow I have musicianship, then probably homework, then celebrating Megan's birthday. [WOO!] Saturday I have rehearsal for UP from 1-4, then Sunday at 11 my mother is picking me up for brunch, then shopping and a haircut. Finally ending the weekend with rehearsal from 6:30-9:30 for Mattress. If only Monday were easy. No. I have 2 regular classes, two private music lessons, 2 hours of choir, then I have to get ready for a job interview in Burnsville. Then most likely rehearsal.
Friday the 4th I leave for CHOIR TOUR! Hell to the yessss. That is going to be the most epic week ever.
I don't even want to think about what comes after Spring Break..
I wish I didn't know my fate. But I do.
Month of HELL.
This will be a real treat.
Anyway, that is the latest update on my life. Hopefully I won't completely abandon this blog until I go home in May. Oh yeah, I probably won't be home til I'm done with school in May. Shant have any time.
But that's okay. Unfortunately I'll really miss Lola. :[
Okay, that is all. Happy Thursday!
I had a lot of school work this week, lots of demanding classes, and a hell of a lot of rehearsal.
Also, Tuesday night I was up til 4. That was a stupid, stupid mistake. But not on purpose I might add.
Yesterday I also had rehearsal from 4-6:30, and again from 7:30-10. WOW.
Tonight I have more rehearsal, then tomorrow I have musicianship, then probably homework, then celebrating Megan's birthday. [WOO!] Saturday I have rehearsal for UP from 1-4, then Sunday at 11 my mother is picking me up for brunch, then shopping and a haircut. Finally ending the weekend with rehearsal from 6:30-9:30 for Mattress. If only Monday were easy. No. I have 2 regular classes, two private music lessons, 2 hours of choir, then I have to get ready for a job interview in Burnsville. Then most likely rehearsal.
Friday the 4th I leave for CHOIR TOUR! Hell to the yessss. That is going to be the most epic week ever.
I don't even want to think about what comes after Spring Break..
I wish I didn't know my fate. But I do.
Month of HELL.
This will be a real treat.
Anyway, that is the latest update on my life. Hopefully I won't completely abandon this blog until I go home in May. Oh yeah, I probably won't be home til I'm done with school in May. Shant have any time.
But that's okay. Unfortunately I'll really miss Lola. :[
Okay, that is all. Happy Thursday!
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
Friends from Home
What a day. Only 11:50 and I'm in a not-so-great mood. I thought this day would rock.
I just want to fast forward to 7 o'clock. 7 o'clock is rehearsal for UP. Last night we had our first read-through of the script, and I already know that it is going to be a fantastic production, inside and out. I know everyone but one person in the cast, so we already feel super comfortable with each other. Granted it's a six person cast, but still. That is a great feeling. I think we all are going to play our characters really well, which will make the actual show spectacular.
Speaking of which, I'm going to talk about my character in the show. Maria. She's a sixteen-year-old pregnant girl, and has basically fallen into Mikey's life. Last night the cast had a brief discussion on what we think our characters' roles in the story are, and in my opinion, Maria is the most chill, non-chalont, accepting person in this show. Even though her life hasn't even begun it's hardships, she has accepted it, because it is bound to happen. Now on the contrary, Helen Griffin still hasn't accepted her life even though it's not what she wants it to be. She continues to refer to her "real" husband and how he's so perfect, even though she's with Walter Griffin. She is living her life, and not even accepting that it is happening. I guess what I'm trying to say, is that I want to be more like Maria. Right now, I feel like I am at a crossroads, and there is no end in sight. So many things have been going on in my life that I'm losing a grasp on things. Specifically at school..
I'm loving Christus choir, but I haven't had a "moment" yet. Those are so important to me, and I'm scared I'll never get one again. I like my classes, but I don't LOVE any one of them, which makes me sad. I also just can't seem to find my niche. I don't know who my friends are, and that is just making me desperately miss my friends at home.
This is actually for you- everyone I knew previous to CSP. Over Christmas break I became even closer to Sara, which I didn't even think was possible. We tell each other literally everything and it feels amazing. She has become a necessary part of me, and I cannot live without her. I wish she and I could talk for 2 hours every day, but sadly we don't have time. Sara, I just want you to know, that no matter what happens, you have changed my life, and I know we'll be friends forever, no matter what it takes. You have helped me sooo much this year.
A few weeks ago, my good friend Emma came to visit as well. We both desperately needed a girls' night, and we got one. We had a blast. Unfortunately since then, we've been missing each other a lot more. Hopefully she can come up and visit again, because she and I always have really stupid fun together, which is always memorable.
One more person. I miss my sister. She and I haven't talked more than usual, but I still feel really good about our sisterly bond lately. Whenever she calls me drunk, she tells me that I am the best sister in the world and that she loves me. Unfortunately, I never hear this sober, but Anna, as sober as ever, I just wanna tell you that you are the best sister in the world. You're ridiculous, and though sometimes I do want to stuff a sock in your mouth to shut you up, you're an incredible, respectable person. It's crazy that you're graduating this year. Even crazier that you might be moving. But I kind of hope you do. Not because you'll be farther away, therefore can bug me less, but because you need an adventure. It's time for one. And if you go anywhere, I'll come visit and we can run around like idiots together.
Well I think that concludes my thoughts for today..or atleast for now. I should probably do some homework, as I have time now for it! Maybe some lunch at some point. That might be good. Maybe I'll get me some Leanne Chin while I'm out. A wonton sounds heavenly..
I just want to fast forward to 7 o'clock. 7 o'clock is rehearsal for UP. Last night we had our first read-through of the script, and I already know that it is going to be a fantastic production, inside and out. I know everyone but one person in the cast, so we already feel super comfortable with each other. Granted it's a six person cast, but still. That is a great feeling. I think we all are going to play our characters really well, which will make the actual show spectacular.
Speaking of which, I'm going to talk about my character in the show. Maria. She's a sixteen-year-old pregnant girl, and has basically fallen into Mikey's life. Last night the cast had a brief discussion on what we think our characters' roles in the story are, and in my opinion, Maria is the most chill, non-chalont, accepting person in this show. Even though her life hasn't even begun it's hardships, she has accepted it, because it is bound to happen. Now on the contrary, Helen Griffin still hasn't accepted her life even though it's not what she wants it to be. She continues to refer to her "real" husband and how he's so perfect, even though she's with Walter Griffin. She is living her life, and not even accepting that it is happening. I guess what I'm trying to say, is that I want to be more like Maria. Right now, I feel like I am at a crossroads, and there is no end in sight. So many things have been going on in my life that I'm losing a grasp on things. Specifically at school..
I'm loving Christus choir, but I haven't had a "moment" yet. Those are so important to me, and I'm scared I'll never get one again. I like my classes, but I don't LOVE any one of them, which makes me sad. I also just can't seem to find my niche. I don't know who my friends are, and that is just making me desperately miss my friends at home.
This is actually for you- everyone I knew previous to CSP. Over Christmas break I became even closer to Sara, which I didn't even think was possible. We tell each other literally everything and it feels amazing. She has become a necessary part of me, and I cannot live without her. I wish she and I could talk for 2 hours every day, but sadly we don't have time. Sara, I just want you to know, that no matter what happens, you have changed my life, and I know we'll be friends forever, no matter what it takes. You have helped me sooo much this year.
A few weeks ago, my good friend Emma came to visit as well. We both desperately needed a girls' night, and we got one. We had a blast. Unfortunately since then, we've been missing each other a lot more. Hopefully she can come up and visit again, because she and I always have really stupid fun together, which is always memorable.
One more person. I miss my sister. She and I haven't talked more than usual, but I still feel really good about our sisterly bond lately. Whenever she calls me drunk, she tells me that I am the best sister in the world and that she loves me. Unfortunately, I never hear this sober, but Anna, as sober as ever, I just wanna tell you that you are the best sister in the world. You're ridiculous, and though sometimes I do want to stuff a sock in your mouth to shut you up, you're an incredible, respectable person. It's crazy that you're graduating this year. Even crazier that you might be moving. But I kind of hope you do. Not because you'll be farther away, therefore can bug me less, but because you need an adventure. It's time for one. And if you go anywhere, I'll come visit and we can run around like idiots together.
Well I think that concludes my thoughts for today..or atleast for now. I should probably do some homework, as I have time now for it! Maybe some lunch at some point. That might be good. Maybe I'll get me some Leanne Chin while I'm out. A wonton sounds heavenly..
Sunday, February 13, 2011
The Simple Joys of Life
Right now I am sitting in Sarah and Kathy's room with them, and Becky. Being here, I am definitely enjoying the simple joys of life.
First, Kathy brought back Chinese food for us, so I just had some lo mein. YUM.
Secondly, Sarah is making obscene sounds.
Thirdly, Kathy is having a super deep conversation on the phone, and I'm making up the other side to it in my head. It's grand.
Fourth, tomorrow night for Boycott Commercialism Day, me and some of my gals are going out to Cafe Latte for desserty yumminess! So dammit, I'm wearing my fabulous lacey dress. And while on Grand Ave, Sarah and I are going to smoke BCD cigars. [BCD is Boycott Commercialism Day. That is a lot to type.]
I just knitted a little bit too. HOLLA!
I'm going to knit me a scarf, despite what Chris says about spring being almost here. It's not.
Today I got new glasses. They are Ray Bans. And they are divine. My face looks great.
Also, I am so very super excited about the shows I'm in. Tonight was the read-through for Once Upon A Mattress, and my dearest Sarah is also in the show, so she and I are going to have oodles of fun!
I am also in the play UP. I play a sixteen-year-old pregnant girl! It's going to be my first big role, and I am ecstatic. It's going to be amazing. And three of my friends from Tartuffe are in it! SO YAY!
Okay, I think those are my simple joys of life for now.
Oh, also..future roommate bonding time is super awesome. <3
First, Kathy brought back Chinese food for us, so I just had some lo mein. YUM.
Secondly, Sarah is making obscene sounds.
Thirdly, Kathy is having a super deep conversation on the phone, and I'm making up the other side to it in my head. It's grand.
Fourth, tomorrow night for Boycott Commercialism Day, me and some of my gals are going out to Cafe Latte for desserty yumminess! So dammit, I'm wearing my fabulous lacey dress. And while on Grand Ave, Sarah and I are going to smoke BCD cigars. [BCD is Boycott Commercialism Day. That is a lot to type.]
I just knitted a little bit too. HOLLA!
I'm going to knit me a scarf, despite what Chris says about spring being almost here. It's not.
Today I got new glasses. They are Ray Bans. And they are divine. My face looks great.
Also, I am so very super excited about the shows I'm in. Tonight was the read-through for Once Upon A Mattress, and my dearest Sarah is also in the show, so she and I are going to have oodles of fun!
I am also in the play UP. I play a sixteen-year-old pregnant girl! It's going to be my first big role, and I am ecstatic. It's going to be amazing. And three of my friends from Tartuffe are in it! SO YAY!
Okay, I think those are my simple joys of life for now.
Oh, also..future roommate bonding time is super awesome. <3
Thursday, February 10, 2011
Loneliness
What a strange start to the semester it's been. So many things are different. I live in a single dorm, my tonsils are gone, and I feel like my relationships with people are changing. Not just at school- everywhere. It's crazy. Today was not a bad day per se, but it was odd.
I worked on theory with Rachel after choir, then went to dinner with her, then took another round of sodexho with Megan and Esther. After that, we hit up Target for me to get Cosmo. [Dignity, always dignity.]
After dinner, there was the girls gathering in my hallway. We had some pizza and chatted for a while, then parted ways. I had no homework, so I read my script for the show I was recently cast in: UP. [Everyone on campus and nearby should definitely come see it- I play a sixteen year-old pregnant girl!] Now, I'm sitting in my dorm, just..sitting. I was sitting staring a the ceiling for good ten minutes. In silence. Just thinking. Thinking about my life. What am I doing? That is all I am going to say about it, but what am I doing? And what have I done? Why has my life turned out like this?
Let's just say, this week is Regret Week. I have just been regretting so much, and it is just hitting me now. I'm not an emotional mess, I promise. But come on, what is up with me? I think that at this stage of my life, I need to get on track. I can't just let other people influence me. I need adventure, and I need it now.
My best friend from back home, Sara, and I were talking last night, and I decided that it would be good for both of us to take a few day trip and just have an adventure. Maybe not even talk to people from home. Just be with each other and figure out ourselves. Take a car, and just drive. Maybe drive aimlessly and stop after 4 hours. Then figure out where we are, figure out what to do, and just..be.
Be.
I like that word. I wish I could just "Be" sometimes. Like that quote I love..
"Sing. Be. Live. Be." I need to really apply that to my life more now. I need it.
Anyway, back to adventures with Sara- I want to just meet people. And talk to them for a few days. Just get to know them. Remember those days forever, and just have that in my mind so I can always look back.
This is probably the oddest blog post ever. I'm sorry if it doesn't make sense.
Let's just say I'm confused. Yeah.
And it just dawned on me that the title of this is "Loneliness". When I started this entry, I just automatically entered it. I wonder why.
Song listened to while writing: Listen
I worked on theory with Rachel after choir, then went to dinner with her, then took another round of sodexho with Megan and Esther. After that, we hit up Target for me to get Cosmo. [Dignity, always dignity.]
After dinner, there was the girls gathering in my hallway. We had some pizza and chatted for a while, then parted ways. I had no homework, so I read my script for the show I was recently cast in: UP. [Everyone on campus and nearby should definitely come see it- I play a sixteen year-old pregnant girl!] Now, I'm sitting in my dorm, just..sitting. I was sitting staring a the ceiling for good ten minutes. In silence. Just thinking. Thinking about my life. What am I doing? That is all I am going to say about it, but what am I doing? And what have I done? Why has my life turned out like this?
Let's just say, this week is Regret Week. I have just been regretting so much, and it is just hitting me now. I'm not an emotional mess, I promise. But come on, what is up with me? I think that at this stage of my life, I need to get on track. I can't just let other people influence me. I need adventure, and I need it now.
My best friend from back home, Sara, and I were talking last night, and I decided that it would be good for both of us to take a few day trip and just have an adventure. Maybe not even talk to people from home. Just be with each other and figure out ourselves. Take a car, and just drive. Maybe drive aimlessly and stop after 4 hours. Then figure out where we are, figure out what to do, and just..be.
Be.
I like that word. I wish I could just "Be" sometimes. Like that quote I love..
"Sing. Be. Live. Be." I need to really apply that to my life more now. I need it.
Anyway, back to adventures with Sara- I want to just meet people. And talk to them for a few days. Just get to know them. Remember those days forever, and just have that in my mind so I can always look back.
This is probably the oddest blog post ever. I'm sorry if it doesn't make sense.
Let's just say I'm confused. Yeah.
And it just dawned on me that the title of this is "Loneliness". When I started this entry, I just automatically entered it. I wonder why.
Song listened to while writing: Listen
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
Love of Mine
The most beautiful girl in the world.
The apple of my eye.
I would like to tell all of you about my one true love- Sarah.
I met her in September, and she has changed my life. She is my number one cuddle buddy, conversationalist, lover, and singing partner.
And let me tell ya, she's a girl who's ass does not quit. Atleast with me.
Let's talk about her features, shall we? Okay? Okay.
First- her forehead. She says its five fingers tall, but in my opinion, the bigger the forehead, the better the lover.
Second- her eyes. They are blue like the ocean and sometimes I get lost in their depth.
Third- her bootay. She says her crack is longer than most peoples', but I love it anyway. The uniqueness of her long crack makes her special. I must make one exception- I do not like the farts.
These are some of the things I love about Sarah. She is one of a kind. An individual. A beauty.
Okay..I know this all seems sarcastic, and it is, but seriously. She's one hot lady.
Ever thine.
Ever mine.
Ever ours.
PS I forgive her for not having enough hemoglobins. I still love her inside and out. <3
The apple of my eye.
I would like to tell all of you about my one true love- Sarah.
I met her in September, and she has changed my life. She is my number one cuddle buddy, conversationalist, lover, and singing partner.
And let me tell ya, she's a girl who's ass does not quit. Atleast with me.
Let's talk about her features, shall we? Okay? Okay.
First- her forehead. She says its five fingers tall, but in my opinion, the bigger the forehead, the better the lover.
Second- her eyes. They are blue like the ocean and sometimes I get lost in their depth.
Third- her bootay. She says her crack is longer than most peoples', but I love it anyway. The uniqueness of her long crack makes her special. I must make one exception- I do not like the farts.
These are some of the things I love about Sarah. She is one of a kind. An individual. A beauty.
Okay..I know this all seems sarcastic, and it is, but seriously. She's one hot lady.
Ever thine.
Ever mine.
Ever ours.
PS I forgive her for not having enough hemoglobins. I still love her inside and out. <3
Sunday, February 6, 2011
Home is Where the Spleen Is
I don't think my heart is at home. That is why I replaced the word "heart" with "spleen". It doesn't seem like I have a mold in Northfield anymore.
Northfield is a strange place.
I can't say I hate it, because..well it did make for a pretty decent childhood, but at the same time, it needs to up its game.
I have to say that some aspects of it, I just love. I love the whole unique-ness of it. I think that may be a reason why I really value individuality. For example, I just love Blue Monday. It's seriously another home. I've been going there with my mom pretty much since it opened, and whenever I'm home, I like to sit and absorb the atmosphere. It's also a great place for people watching.
I think ending up in Northfield again would maybe kill me. So many things about Northfield I'm glad were part of my life, but if they have to be again, I won't be very happy.
When I was home for Christmas break, I became incredibly homesick. For school. Yeah. Isn't that crazy? At school I live in a dorm, live out of a mini fridge, share a bathroom with a bunch of girls, and eat Sodexo. But seriously. It's become such a great home for me. I love my friends, I love Christus, I love the theatre department, and I just love being in the cities. The cities hold promise for adventure. [Shout out to Sarah Carpenter!]
Right now I'm thinking that after college, I am going to pick up all of my life here, and just move. Immediately after college is the perfect to try something new. I want to see if I like different climates, lifestyles, and people. I know some of you think that I'm just dreaming far ahead, but I need some adventure. Over the last few months I've decided that I'm one of those people that wants to remember everything and regret absolutely nothing.
So dammit, let's explore.
Speaking of which, who's up for a spontaneous road trip?
Northfield is a strange place.
I can't say I hate it, because..well it did make for a pretty decent childhood, but at the same time, it needs to up its game.
I have to say that some aspects of it, I just love. I love the whole unique-ness of it. I think that may be a reason why I really value individuality. For example, I just love Blue Monday. It's seriously another home. I've been going there with my mom pretty much since it opened, and whenever I'm home, I like to sit and absorb the atmosphere. It's also a great place for people watching.
I think ending up in Northfield again would maybe kill me. So many things about Northfield I'm glad were part of my life, but if they have to be again, I won't be very happy.
When I was home for Christmas break, I became incredibly homesick. For school. Yeah. Isn't that crazy? At school I live in a dorm, live out of a mini fridge, share a bathroom with a bunch of girls, and eat Sodexo. But seriously. It's become such a great home for me. I love my friends, I love Christus, I love the theatre department, and I just love being in the cities. The cities hold promise for adventure. [Shout out to Sarah Carpenter!]
Right now I'm thinking that after college, I am going to pick up all of my life here, and just move. Immediately after college is the perfect to try something new. I want to see if I like different climates, lifestyles, and people. I know some of you think that I'm just dreaming far ahead, but I need some adventure. Over the last few months I've decided that I'm one of those people that wants to remember everything and regret absolutely nothing.
So dammit, let's explore.
Speaking of which, who's up for a spontaneous road trip?
Thursday, February 3, 2011
Music
People reading this, whoever you are- you should know something.
A lot of this blog is going to consist of rambling about music.
First thing's first. This is the most powerful piece in history. Listen. It's the reason for my being.
Tea Garden
Today is Thursday, February 3, 2011.
Earlier, I was feeling pensive, so I started writing this list. I'm now going to tell you what it is.
Things I've Learned and Want to Remember:
1. You can't [and shouldn't] lie to yourself and for the other person in a relationship. I learned this the hard way.
2. If you don't get that legit "in love" feeling, it's not worth it. If it's dead-ended and you're not happy for real, get out. GET OUT NOW.
3. Follow your gut.
4. Do everything for your kids to make their childhood memorable.
5. Don't push falling in love. The more it happens, the least real it gets.
6. People may not get you through everything, but music will every time.
7. Music and Singing have been My Refuge- And Music and Singing Shall Be My Life.
8. There is no such thing as embarrassment. So..
9. If your friends are embarrassed by your actions, they just aren't real.
10. Finding a person to exchange random thoughts with makes a huge impact on your life.
11. Sometimes a mainstream relationship isn't what you need.
12. Relationships in any shape or form are not a chick flick. You most likely will not fall in love. Your heart will be broken, and you won't find each other years later.
13. Sometimes an old friend is what you need.
Earlier, I was feeling pensive, so I started writing this list. I'm now going to tell you what it is.
Things I've Learned and Want to Remember:
1. You can't [and shouldn't] lie to yourself and for the other person in a relationship. I learned this the hard way.
2. If you don't get that legit "in love" feeling, it's not worth it. If it's dead-ended and you're not happy for real, get out. GET OUT NOW.
3. Follow your gut.
4. Do everything for your kids to make their childhood memorable.
5. Don't push falling in love. The more it happens, the least real it gets.
6. People may not get you through everything, but music will every time.
7. Music and Singing have been My Refuge- And Music and Singing Shall Be My Life.
8. There is no such thing as embarrassment. So..
9. If your friends are embarrassed by your actions, they just aren't real.
10. Finding a person to exchange random thoughts with makes a huge impact on your life.
11. Sometimes a mainstream relationship isn't what you need.
12. Relationships in any shape or form are not a chick flick. You most likely will not fall in love. Your heart will be broken, and you won't find each other years later.
13. Sometimes an old friend is what you need.
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